Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Week 34 conclusion: "The Happiest Place on Earth"
If I'm going to take the time to write something, I would prefer it to be something that is profound in some way, or an original thought. I'm not necessarily trying to be "different" but if I'm going to invest the time, why would I want to echo the same old thoughts and ideas? I realize that the "coming-of-age story" of a person finding out they have more in common with their parents than they ever realized, is not original at all, but it is profound in its own way. It may not be profound to everyone, but it is for the individual. Anytime you can understand someone else better on a human level, you gain wisdom. Up until a certain age, you view your parents as "the answer havers", or at least I have. Don't get me wrong, I still go to them for advice all the time, and I still think they know everything, but the older I get, especially on the cusp of becoming a parent myself, I've realized that a lot of the advice I've gotten over the years has probably been their best guess. This is strangely comforting to me, because in the coming years, when our children are expecting Colt and I to be the "know all, be all" of the family, we can give them the knowledge that we have, and then, hopefully be wise enough to give them a good guess. :)
So far, throughout this pregnancy, I have been pretty confident in my parenting skills. I really wouldn't describe myself as a worrier in any aspect of my life. My philosophy has always been, if I make the wrong decision, I can deal with the consequences. Roll with the punches. It will be interesting to see how I feel when I hold the baby for the first time, and it hits me that we (Colt and I) are solely responsible for this human. If he falls down and skins his knee, he will run to us. If he disobeys or is disrespectful, we are the ones that have to decide how to discipline. I was telling someone just the other day, sometimes I feel like saying, "Who is allowing me to have a child?!? I am still a child!" No one seems to be alarmed, so obviously I'm doing something right. Haha! I think this is a pretty normal thought, even for people who are much older than me, having their first child. When you've never been faced with this type, or this much responsibility, you wonder how you'll rise to the occasion. I'm confident that I will, and I'm looking forward to discovering the ways I'll grow as a woman, and as a human in general. I can't wait to see Colt as a father. I expect that will be one of the greatest joys of my life. Well I think that is enough introspection for one post.
I wrote 3/4 of this post on Tuesday, and the other 1/4 today (Wednesday), and today marks week 35! The rest of week 34 was uneventful, other than Disney. I suppose one new thing to report would be that when I sleep on my side now, I can feel body parts moving inside me, and it can feel as though I'm laying on the baby, which is weird! I think he has run out of room in there. Also, the baby may have "dropped" due to all of the walking at Epcot, although I'm not sure. I don't know what its supposed to feel like.
December 23rd is a special day in our house because today, three years ago, Colt proposed to me! It was one of the happiest days of my life. Being married to Colt has proven to me that it IS possible to love someone more and more each day. He has made marriage and my life in general better than I could have ever imagined. As I've told him in the past, even if nothing particularly happy or extraordinary ever happens in my life again, I would be content and satisfied, knowing that my marriage to him has been happy, and extraordinary enough for a thousand lifetimes, and expecting anything more would be greed. So I will sign off this post wishing you all a happy and extraordinary holiday with your loved ones! Thanks for reading!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Week 33 (and half of 34): Waiting for the "drop"
Thursday night (Dec. 10th-33 wks, 1 day), Colt had his regular gig at Cantina Laredo, and instead of going like a good wife, I decided I needed to get some Christmas shopping done. I went to my favorite store...ROSS! Yes, Ross. Jest if you must, but it has some great stuff for really cheap! It truly is like a treasure hunt. Anyway, I walked out of there with a majority of my Christmas shopping done, and I only spent $100! I resisted the urge to buy myself some really cute flat, brown boots, for tis' better to give than to receive!
On Friday (33 wks, 2 days) I made a trip down to Babies-R-Us to order our glider. We had a lot of trouble choosing one, but we finally decided on a big, fluffy, chenille armchair. Its so comfortable, but we're not sure how its going to wear. It got rave reviews online, but like I said, we're not sure how well the material is going to hold up. We have a throw blanket on it now, so hopefully that will help. Its a little bit more cramped in our living room now, but at least I'll have a really comfortable chair to nurse the baby in! Colt is using it now, and loving it. I wish I could take a picture of him right now because he's sitting in it, reading a Paul McCartney biography. I told him he looks like an old Grandpa because of the throw blanket.
Saturday morning (33 wks, 3 days) I met the Murphy family at Riverhills Park to take some family portraits! It was my first photography gig since Josh & Suzanne Dickey's wedding in September. I love working with family because its so easy going! We got some really good shots and it only took about 45 minutes. Its so strange to see how fast their kids are growing up. Ethan was born a few days before Colt and I's wedding, so he is literally a walking and talking timeline of our marriage. Its also strange, when I stop and think about it (which I did on my way home from taking the pictures), to remember Tara and Lauren when they were pregnant with Sydney and Ethan, and how they started off as just a couple of cells, and are now developed into little people with personalities, and senses of humor. Its weird to think of Cash having a sense of humor since I can remember him being a blob on a sonogram screen.
Sunday (33 wks, 4 days) started a new phase of this pregnancy which was stronger, and more frequent Braxton Hicks contractions. I noticed them starting to "pick up" a little bit, and decided to keep an eye on them just in case.
Monday, (33 wks, 5 days) Emilee met Colt and I at our house to take some pregnancy pictures for us. As always, I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off all day, and wasn't ready by the time she arrived at our house. I had been at the mall trying to find a shirt to wear for the photoshoot, and checking out the sale at The Children's Place. When I got home I quickly changed clothes and tried to spruce up a little bit. Colt and I were laughing at my new shirt, which I liked, but probably wouldn't have chosen if I wasn't pregnant. We agreed that it looked like something Liza Minnelli would wear during a performance. Haha! Whatever. By the time we got down to Ybor (my favorite photographic location), there was very little light left. We only got a couple of good ones, but hopefully we'll have some time to take a few more before he arrives. Later that night we went to dinner with Emilee and Nathan to a Greek restaurant in Ybor called, Acropolis. I have to pat Colt and myself on the back for branching out and trying something new, because we always go to the same few restaurants. If its dinner time, and we're not at home, we're either at Outback, Chilis, Mellow Mushroom, Carrabbas, or we have ordered Papa Johns. After dinner, Colt and I were exhausted so we rented a few documentaries and crashed on the couch. If you haven't seen "The Cove", you must rent it. Its a documentary about how the Japanese are capturing and killing dolphins for meat (although they're dangerously high in Mercury, and the Japanese are marketing it as whale), or selling them for a huge profit. Its so sad! Rent it! Anyway, here are a few of the pregnancy pictures...Emilee did a great job!
Tuesday (33 weeks, 6 days) was my Nephrologist appointment. It was an uneventful appointment, which is good! She said my proteins had gone down drastically. The OB started to worry when they went over 300 (they were 354) last visit, but this time they were 184! This is a significant improvement, although no one knows why it improved so much. The doctor said sometimes it just changes day to day. She did say that I had some signs of having a minor infection (none of which are anything that I would notice), but they will give me some antibiotics that will clear it right up! She wants to see me back in 3 weeks. I could potentially be bringing a baby to my next appointment at her office!
I know that Wednesday is the start of week 34, and this post is for week 33, but oh well! Colt and I went down to Clearwater on Wednesday afternoon so Colt could get the H1N1 vaccine at my mom's office. He got it for free which was great! On our way down there, Colt stopped at my favorite restaurant so I could get take out. If you're ever in Safety Harbor, you must stop in at Green Springs, which is a little artsy house turned into a restaurant on Main Street. Order the Beneli. Its a mixture of Greek cheeses, roma tomatoes, and portabello mushrooms on flatbread with a spring mix side salad. Its not pizza, but its pizza-esque. So good, and actually really healthy! I have been eating there since high school, and as I was standing at the counter waiting for my lunch, it hit me that this would probably be the last time I would be eating there without a child! This notion has been hitting me a lot lately! After the appointment, we went to the Babies-R-Us in Brandon to pick up the glider before church. Its seriously one of the most comfortable chairs that I've ever sat in. I can't wait to rock the baby in it! Wednesday night after church, Colt, Brian Jr. and myself went to see 2012. Its been a really long time since we've seen a movie, and we figured we better get them in before we are confined to our home! I liked the movie, but then again, I'm a sucker for movies about destruction and natural disasters. Just call me an old romantic. :) I had a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions during the movie. Maybe the baby liked it so much he was trying to come out and see! The doctor told me to call her if they were more frequent than 4 in an hour, but I knew I would see her the next day, and didn't think it would be a big deal to mention it at my appointment the next day.
Thursday (34 weeks, 1 day) was a day I had been waiting for for a long time! I had an ultrasound appointment at the doctor's office, and a regular OB checkup. Our appointment time was at 1:30pm, and we were informed at our previous appointment that they would be moving offices. Colt called (while I was getting ready) about 45 minutes ahead of time to make sure we were going to the correct office, and they informed us that they couldn't find us on the schedule! I was so upset. As I said, I had been looking forward to the ultrasound especially, for a long time! Colt explained that we did have an appointment, so they "fit us in" at 2:15pm at the South Tampa office. The office building was in a somewhat "shady" area of town, but you wouldn't know it when you set foot in the lobby. It literally looked like a lobby in a five star hotel. When I got called back for the routine blood pressure check (116/72 by the way), urine sample, and weight check, they asked me if I had any concerns to discuss with the doctor. I told the nurse about the frequent Braxton Hicks, and she said she would pass it on to the doctor, and she would decided if she wanted to do an exam. After about 5 more minutes, Colt and I got called back to the room. We had never seen this doctor before, but we heard she had broken her ankle, so a nurse was helping her get around. She and the nurse arrived a few minutes later, and we got to meet Dr. Roush. She didn't seem like she was in the best of moods. I re-explained the Braxton Hicks situation, and she decided to do an exam to see if I was dilated at all, which I wasn't. She said the baby still hadn't "dropped", but that the Braxton Hicks were a good sign, because they could be helping things along. She explained that even if I was to go into labor at this point, they would try to stop it, but they wouldn't be very aggressive in their attempt because the baby would probably be perfectly fine if born now. By 35/36 weeks they don't even attempt to stop it. This was somewhat exciting news, knowing that the baby is big enough to be healthy out of the womb. I think I will keep him in there for a few more weeks though! :) One thing I wasn't very happy about was after the exam, the doctor, who was on one of those stools with wheels on the bottom (she couldn't stand without the help of the crutches), wheeled herself over to the door to call the nurse. I'm sitting there with one of those paper blankets over my lap (immediately after the exam) and she leaves the door open and wheels herself down the hall to find the nurse. There I am, sitting on the doctors table, undressed from the waist down with nothing but a paper blanket over my lap, and the door is wide open! I didn't think that was very courteous or professional of her. I had a few questions after the exam, and she seemed annoyed by them. She almost made me feel stupid for asking them. After she would answer one, she would say, "What else?" Nice, huh! When I asked her about my sonogram, she said I wasn't on the schedule to have one! After all that I had been through with the mis-scheduling, and the rude doctor, I was NOT HAPPY to hear that they had mis-scheduled my sonogram that I had been waiting for! The doctor that I usually see (same group of doctors, but a different woman) told me that having a sonogram at 34 weeks was standard procedure. This doctor told me that they didn't do them until 36 or 37 weeks. I explained that the baby has measured big at every ultrasound, so the baby's size was one reason that my doctor wanted me to have one, as well as the fact that he has been breech at every ultrasound. Again, I was told they would see if they could "fit me in". Thankfully they could, and the ultrasound tech was very nice. She made up for the doctor's bad behavior. We found out that the baby is measuring at about 36 1/2 weeks, and is about 6 lbs. 2 oz.! He is also head down, which was great news! His little lungs and heart were working perfectly. If I make it to 40 weeks, I could be on track for a very big little boy. He is in the 80th percentile for growth! At my last doctor's office sonogram he was in the 70th percentile. I kept telling my doctor that at my sonograms with my mother's friend, Jennifer, the baby was always measuring about 2 to 3 weeks ahead of schedule, but they couldn't just take my word for it, as it wasn't the office's ultrasound tech. Now they believe me! Haha! Anyway, they said everything looks great. She tried to turn on the 4D ultrasound machine, but he had his little arm in front of his face again! Bummer! After the ultrasound, I had one more question for the doctor regarding induction. At my previous appointment a few weeks ago, the doctor said that induction could be something we had to talk about it my blood pressure didn't get better, and my proteins didn't go down. I wanted to make sure this was no longer a concern. The nurse called the doctor back in the room, and she didn't seem happy about this! Colt said we were so sorry to call her back, and she said, "Its fine, its just my husband is driving me everywhere now because of my ankle, and he is downstairs waiting, saying he has to go." Needless to say, we were made to feel bad, and rushed to ask the question. I hope we don't have her on "D-Day"!
As of now, I have another Nephrologist appointment in 3 weeks, and another OB appointment on January 4th. I will be 36 weeks, 5 days. We have our last ultrasound with my mom's friend, Jennifer, on December 28th. The weeks are dwindling down. Thanks for reading everyone!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Week 32: "Full of Cash"
Another fun holiday activity this week was the annual ornament exchange party for the ladies at church, hosted by L'Von Qualls on Tuesday night (32 weeks, 6 days). A few weeks ago she asked if she could combine the ornament exchange party with a baby shower of sorts for me! It was so sweet of her to organize & host it, and so sweet of all of the ladies at the party to pitch in, and present Colt and I with a money tree! We played a party game where we were all asked to write down something about ourselves that we thought no one else would know. I had such a good time getting to know all of the ladies better! I should have taken pictures of all of the food that everyone brought. It was INSANE! One of the highlights of the party was when Cash decided to kick for Sharon (Colt's mother). He is a notoriously shy kicker for anyone but Colt and I, but during the ornament exchange he let his Grandma in on his secret! :) At the end of the night, I left with a money tree, a to-go box of cookies and miscellaneous sweets, and a cookie jar shaped like a fat penguin (which my mother said I resembled, as I was wearing a black shirt). It was a lovely party!
I know its probably silly to have installed the car seat this early, but that was another major accomplishment of week 32. With our car situation, it was necessary that we figured this out ahead of time. I don't remember if I mentioned it in a previous blog, but about 4 weeks ago (November 12th) Colt and I bought a 2005 Jeep Grand Cherokee. Colt needs a larger car to fit all of his equipment that he brings to his gigs. We had to figure out a way that he could fit all of his equipment in the car, without having to take the car seat base out every time he loaded it. We figured it out. My car may be a different story. I haven't tested it out yet, but I've been reading about car seat installation in a Mustang, and many of the women say they can fit the car seat, but not the base. Hopefully this week I can give it a whirl! Speaking of my car...I had quite a scare earlier this week. Saturday night (Dec. 5th), when Colt was at his gig, I got bored sitting in the house, so I decided to go down to New Tampa to do some Christmas shopping and get Starbucks. My car had been acting up two days prior, but Colt changed the terminals on my battery, and it was working perfectly all day on Friday (Dec. 4th). I should have noticed when I got in the car on Saturday night that something wasn't right, but I think the urge for a Starbucks "Solo, Grande, Two-Pump, Mocha Latte" was too strong. Actually I did notice something was a little bit strange when I got in the car, because the lights on the radio and dash board were slightly dimmed. I thought that if I drove it around for a little while, the alternator would charge the battery, and everything would be fine. I started out of the neighborhood, and decided I would take back roads to New Tampa instead of jumping on I-75 like I usually do, just in case I had any problems. I got all the way up to 56th and Fowler when I noticed that my CD started skipping, and the man's voice on my book on tape was distorted. I decided to turn back around and head home. As I made my u-turn at the light, the car started trying to die on me, but I wouldn't let her! I prayed all the way that I would make it back to the house, or at least the neighborhood. Did I mention it was one of the coldest nights we've had in a while? I hit green lights the entire way home, and I made it all the way back to the light at Temple Terrace Highway and 78th Street before she died. I was turning into my neighborhood when I realized that I couldn't accelerate, and that I was basically just coasting. The brakes still worked thankfully, but I had my hand on the emergency brakes just in case. She conked out two streets before my in-laws house. I called Buddy and Sharon around 8:30pm, and they were there to rescue me in a matter of minutes. I have had alternator problems before, and I knew that's probably what it was. Buddy and Sharon pushed my car over to the side of the street and Buddy took the battery out so he could have it charged on Sunday afternoon. Long story short, my car has a new alternator. I'm thankful that Buddy and Sharon were there to rescue me!
I know I've mentioned how different the baby's movement has been in recent weeks, but I feel the need to mention it again. Of course, it was cool to feel the baby kick earlier in my pregnancy, but his movement is so different now, its amazing. It used to feel like a quick little nudge from some shapeless blob inside me every now and then, but now it feels like a human...like a baby. I can feel it all over my stomach, not just in one area. I feel like my belly is "full of him". I'm full of Cash. :)
I feel as though I should address my weight gain. This is something I'm sure people are curious about, as I would be curious if I were reading this about someone else. It will also be helpful in judging my progress in future pregnancies should they ever happen (Lord willing). Ok, here goes... So far, I've gained about 26 pounds, according to the doctor last week, but probably 27 pounds by now. Weight gain has NOT been something I've been particularly worried about for a while now. In the beginning of my pregnancy I was worried about it, but as I've progressed, I've realized there is nothing I can do about it, short of starving myself and being a bad mother! I've been eating normally, not gorging myself on junk food, but I'm also not eating salads at every meal. I'm pretty pleased with 27 pounds at this point. If I can keep myself from gaining 20 pounds in these last 7 weeks, I'll be a happy Mama! That's all I have to say about that. :)
I have a feeling these next few weeks are going to be the longest weeks of my life, thus far. As I type this, I have to take short breaths, and gently try to nudge the baby down because he is so far into my ribs its insane. Its beyond annoying trying to propel myself out of bed, about four times throughout the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. I can't lay on my back for very long because my ligaments start pulling and began to hurt. When I wake up in the morning, I have to be careful not to stretch my calf muscles, which I used to do almost instinctually, because I will get horrible charley horses and have to jump out of bed and walk on it to make it go away. This has happened many times. I've never been plagued by so many problems at one time...but its never been more worth it. I can deal with this for as long as its necessary. The reason these weeks are feeling so long is due more to the fact that I can't wait to see his face, and hear him cry for the first time. I think that will be amazing. Hearing the voice of the baby that has been silently curled up inside my body for the last 9 months. The good news is, I'm still wearing my wedding rings, and haven't really had any swelling so far...knock on wood.
IN CONCLUSION, for all of you that are so over reading this everlasting post by now, I thought I would talk about my birth plan. My birth plan is to have a baby. :) A lot of my friends that are having babies around this time have awesome birth plans, that are geared toward a natural delivery. I wish I was strong enough to say that I was going to go au naturale but I know myself to well. If there's a pain reliever available, I'll take two, thank you! I don't want to get too caught up in a birth plan, only because things can change so quickly. I could go into labor with a natural birth plan, but change my mind and beg for the epidural and I wouldn't want to feel bad about that. I could go into labor thinking that I'm going to get an epidural, but arrive at the hospital to late, or miss my window of opportunity, and I wouldn't want to be thrown off by that either. Both of those options could be thrown out the window if I need a c-section, which is obviously not preferable, but sometimes a necessity. All of that to say, I don't want to expect labor to be any certain way. I think I'll just plan to take it as it comes. But like I said, I'm totally jealous of my friends who have made up their minds to do it naturally, and are sticking with it. More power to you ladies!
Week 32 was lovely! I am now 33 weeks, 2 days and going strong. Jamie Keller (also pregnant with a little boy, 9 days farther along than me), sent me a recipe for eggplant parm that is "guaranteed" by the restaurant that makes it, to induce labor. I'm going to give it a whirl around week 38! Thanks for reading everyone! Sorry this was so long.
